The Darkness Within

The Darkness Within

Posted by on Aug 12, 2014 in Matty Says | 4 comments

It comes unexpected. A darkness that slips through the cracks. An oil that works its way through the crevices of your life, taking hold of the joy that thrives within you. It’s a beast that cannot be battled with magic and weapons. It’s a mental game with the demons within. One best not handled alone. What is this monster and why does he control you? It leaves you feeling helpless in even the simplest situations, making every day tasks appear impossible. Getting out of bed is a chore. Waking up and knowing you have to continue on with your life as if there is nothing wrong makes you angry. It hurts. Your body begins to betray you. It aches when you’ve given it no reason to. You starve yourself because just the thought of eating makes you feel ill. Nothing is appealing. Forcing a smile is the equivalent to bench pressing a car, and you haven’t been to the gym in a decade. The cartoons you watched as a child where the black rainy cloud follows a character around everywhere he goes has become reality. It’s not humorous. There is no escape. It’s a fickle thing, depression. A mountain that has to be climbed. You will think you’re near the top, only to find it’s a mere plateau, and you tumble back down to the bottom, somehow feeling like you’ve fallen even further than the base. You’ve gone deeper. You stumbled and found yourself not at the bottom of the mountain, but beneath it. Hell surrounds you. Fire on one side. ice on the other, and what seems like an insurmountable trek above you. The camera pans back, showing the path back to the light. It’s too far, it seems like too much. Why bother trying at all? You’re just going to fall back down or collapse on the way. What’s the point? Depression is not something to take lightly. It isn’t something to be brushed aside, or taken with a grain of salt. There is no switch to flick. You can’t just “be happy” like your naive former-self believed. It’s an all-encompassing mammoth that swallows you entirely, leaving you barely a breath. It’s serious, and it affects so many people that you know, but you have no idea that they’re hurting. It hides beneath the surface and strikes from within. That’s why we need to take care in the people we deal with. We need to stop judging, and lashing out. It doesn’t matter whether we know their story or not. It’s not important whether they’re famous, or some person on the street. They are a person. You never know whose life you might change by offering a smile, or a brief set of kind words. Sometimes a simple “I hope you have a great day!” can make all the difference. Depression can claim any soul at any time, and it’s terrifying. You...

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Consuming Worlds Blogging Anniversary

Consuming Worlds Blogging Anniversary

Posted by on Jul 27, 2014 in Blog Events, Blogger, Interviews, Matty Says, Random | 3 comments

So my fellow blogger and author, Danielle with Consuming Worlds is hosting her Blogging Anniversary today, and I can’t tell you how honored I am to be a part of it. She’s doing something special this year, and rather just promoting authors and books she enjoys, we’re digging a little deeper. Today we’re talking about ourselves as people, not just writers and creators who have uncontrollable alter-egos that like to make up stories. Today we get real, and I dig deep. I wanted to really contribute something true and honest to this post, and I had to go under the skin for it. There’s no fluffy sparkles or humor in today’s post, but it’s real, it’s honest, and it’s the side nobody gets to see from the other side of the monitor. So let’s head over to Consuming Worlds and check out my guest post in celebration of Danielle’s Blogoversary. And congratulations to her on how far she’s come in this short time. When I first met Danielle she didn’t have a blog, and now she’s celebrating an anniversary, as well as her first recently published book, Guided. Happy Blogoversary,...

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The Magic of a Child

The Magic of a Child

Posted by on Mar 5, 2014 in Matty Says | 10 comments

Yesterday my daughter brought home a…well, I’m not entirely sure what it was. It was like a tiny leaf all rolled up, but it wasn’t a leaf. It was completely enclosed. Her friend told her that it was a fairy cocoon. Whoever touched it, the fairy belonged to. This was explained to me in great detail. You cannot even give them as gifts, because when the fairy hatches, it’ll fly back to whoever picked it up first. My oldest daughter, Peyton, who is seven, picked one up and brought it home. She explained how important it was, and that the fairy needed a nice home. So it began. With a little digging, I found a shoe box and a few pieces of cardboard and let her get to work. She built a bed, a couch, drew pictures on post-it notes to decorate (after coloring aka painting the walls), and of course the fairy needed books, so she wrote a few short stories, stapled them together, and laid them on the floor for her. She even wrote on  the outside “The Fairy House,” should anybody else be confused about whose house it truly was. The light in her eyes was priceless, and this came after a particularly rough patch her and I have been having. She is very much like me. Too much in fact. Because of this, she has a love of electronics: iPhones, iPods, computers, Television, tablets, the list can go on. I’ve noticed however, that she spends a lot of time with these things. Too much in fact. Lately I’ve been cutting back on the time she’s been allowed to watch TV, or play with any of the other devices. She doesn’t like this, and she sees it as punishment. I can understand that, but I truly believe it’s important. It’s important for her to learn to play with her toys and use her imagination. It’s important for her to learn to create. I never had all the gadgets growing up. I had dirt, and skipping ropes, and some roller blades. I had to make the fun happen.  I understand kids now and days grow up differently than my generation did, but I think there are valuable lessons to be learned by creating your own entertainment and not looking to someone else to do it for you. This is all to say I was thrilled to see her excitement in something that wasn’t powered by electricity, but by her mind! I had to capitalize on this. And so it continued. After I tucked her in, I carefully split open this leaf-shell thing she had brought home. Once it had a nice little cut in it, I pulled it open, tore the edges slightly so it looked as though something had broke out of it, and laid it back upon the fairy’s cardboard bed (which Peyton had lined...

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Businesses Behaving Badly

Businesses Behaving Badly

Posted by on Oct 17, 2013 in Matty Says, Rant And Ramble | 4 comments

If you’re a friend with me on Facebook, or stalk my Tweets at all, you may have seen me slightly outraged by a certain furniture company whose service was so subpar, it caused me to rant publicly—something I don’t really do—and it’s really had me paying attention to things. In the past three weeks, I’ve been on a bit of a spending and repair spree. Buying new things for the house, repairing broken things, and essentially going to a hundred different stores. The one thing I’ve noticed as of late is the customer service these stores and businesses provide, or lack there of. In a single evening, I visited five different stores in which I had purchased items from that all were in need of repair, and out of those five stores, only one of them was accommodating. The other four were either very difficult to deal with, as I was not there to buy something so they were not interested in helping me, blatantly ignorant and rude to me, or so dismissive I actually thought perhaps my Starbucks contained some kind of invisibility potion. 80% of the businesses I dealt with in just a single evening treated me so poorly that I actually grew angrier with each store I stopped at. That just isn’t right. And all of this doesn’t even included the horrible experience I had at my local bookstores, but that’s a story for another time. This started me on an angry letter-writing campaign where I sent legitimate complaints to the corporate offices of each business. This may seem a bit silly or archaic, but I just couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that these people were getting paid to make customers want to never return to the store, or at least that’s what it seemed like their jobs were. Out of all the letters I wrote, I received one response, and it was simply asking for information that I had already included in my original e-mail. For one business I even wrote two separate letters at different times, after two separate negative experiences, and I did not hear anything. This leaves me even more flabbergasted. In this digital age, there is nothing I cannot buy online, and in most cases, purchasing online saves me anywhere from a little, to a substantial amount of money. The thing is, I don’t buy most of my things online. I like to physically see the product before I purchase it, and in all honesty, I like to deal with people. I like to know when I have a problem, I can go into the store and speak with someone. I don’t like dealing with automated phone services that make me spend fifteen minutes pushing different buttons just so I can be on hold. On top of all that, I like to shop locally. I want to support local...

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Vote Chase – Ya Sisterhood Crush Tourney

Vote Chase – Ya Sisterhood Crush Tourney

Posted by on Jun 21, 2013 in Matty Says, Protector Series | 1 comment

Today’s the day everybody, and we really, really need your help. Chase is up against Tristan in the YA Crush Tourney, and he needs your votes. Check out the post, read the excerpts, or if you don’t have time, just go vote. It’s one click, and we need to make sure Chase makes it to the next round of the tourney. Not only is this a blast, it’s a great opportunity to spread the word about Chase Williams and the world of The Protector. Val from Stuck in Books is representing him this year, and she has put together videos, photos, and a great post on why Chase deserves to win. So head over to the YA Sisterhoods blog, and give our boy Chase a...

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10 Things I Love About Writing

10 Things I Love About Writing

Posted by on Jan 25, 2013 in Author, Matty Says, Writing | 9 comments

One of my goals for the New Year was to start blogging more. And one of the things that holds me back from doing so, is trying to think of extravagant and interesting posts. I realize this is a silly problem to have. A blog is your place. A place to create, be original, be cliche, be boring, whatever. This is your place to imagine. So in honor of that, I’m going to be blogging more often, and one of the features I’m starting is “10 Things.” Each of these posts will be a different topic, and at the end, I’m hoping you’ll contribute some of your favorite things about the topic, should it appeal to you. To kick off this post, we’re starting simple, with 10 Things I Love About Writing. 1. Variety. There are so many different routes you can take with any given story. I’ll admit, sometimes it’s overwhelming. There are all these options laid out before you like a road that’s split into a hundred trails. Some are flat and filled with horrendous creatures, while others are bumpy and lined with obstacles. The overwhelming part is in choosing the right path. Of course, there really is no right path, but it’s impossible at the time of choosing to realize that. Because with each story you craft, you want it to be the best it can possibly be, so choosing the path that doesn’t sate that desire is always in the back of your mind. 2. Therapy. Writing is a therapeutic procedure for me. If I’m feeling angry, sad, or any of the emotions that fill our lives, writing helps me explore those feelings. By the time I’m done a good writing session, I always feel better. 3. Escape. In the event that I’m not mad, or sad, or anything but happy, which is usually the case, writing is a that wonderful escape. Some like to disappear into video games, movies, music, or books, but for me, more than anything, I love to disappear into a world I’ve created, knowing anything can happen. 4. Imagination. The reason I choose to write Fantasy, is because there are no rules. Okay, that’s not true, there are always rules in each world that’s created, but they’re my rules. I get to say what happens, and I get to stretch the limits of what I think is possible. I can build a monster from the ground up, or modify one from legend. And my absolute favorite is world-building. I love creating new dimensions, with fresh landscapes and scenery. 5. Adventure. A story takes you places. Maybe it’s somewhere you’ve been before, or perhaps a place you never dreamed existed, but on that journey, there is a quest, a goal, or a task that needs to be accomplished. The part in between the beginning and the end is the adventure, and...

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