of your own head.
I had a serious case of the blues last week. 100% self-inflicted, inside my head, doubting myself blues. It’s a horrible condition but you need not worry, it’s not contagious. On the other hand, it isn’t a condition medicine can fix.
My last few posts have been about my fear of actually releasing my book, and going back and forth on loving and hating my writing. While I’m happy to know now, that this is totally natural, it doesn’t change the fact that it sucks.
I’m not sure what happened to break myself out of this funk, but the last three days have been the best writing days I’ve had in months. I’ve made up ground with my WIP and the best part is, after reviewing what I’ve written, I loved it. That doesn’t mean that won’t change in a week or two, but generally, if something isn’t working for me, I’ll catch it right away. I won’t always fix it immediately, but I will at least flag it for future changes.
I reached 40,000 words in my MS this weekend, and punched out a handful of really intense chapters on just Saturday alone. They are easily the best chapters I’ve written in this book thus far. Now that I’m out of my funk, I’m tempted to go back and rewrite, or start editing the previous chapters, but I won’t. I’m going to keep trudging forward and finish the first draft. The rewrites and edits are when the real work begins, and before I jump into that, I want to finish having fun with my characters and story.
So there you have it. I can’t help you get out of your own head. I don’t know how to do it. I wrote during the entire process and I think it made it worse. I wasn’t focused, I wasn’t happy with the words, and I couldn’t get into a good flow and lose myself in the story. If I can’t get lost in it when I’m writing it, how can I expect my readers to get lost reading it? I can’t. Take a break if you have to and come back when you’ve cleared your mind. Now that I’ve done that, I’m taking advantage and writing all I can. I’m nearly 50% through the first draft and things are getting exciting.
I’ll be back later this week with news from the cover artist. She’s starting work on the cover for Exiled and hopefully will have some roughs for me late this week or early next week. I did get to check some more chapters from my editor this weekend and as before, things are being smoothed out nicely.
Hiring an editor = best writing decision I’ve made so far.
Until next time, keep you eyes on the screen and fingers on the keys!